Hello guys, long time no seen but if you have been following me on snapchat you would have known that I got my appendix taken out and I have problems with my stomach still so I was having many issues.. on the other hand I am back and I am full of ideas for you people :)

Why did I decide to talk about anxiety? Well.. because it has been a part of my life for quite some time now. I never got anxiety when I was younger but now it's a part of me unfortunately.


It all started in my teenage years, I would feel nervous when I'd seen people fight, I would feel scared even though I didn't know them. I always thought what if.. I would always feel nervous when someone would look at me thinking 'oh no what did I do?'..Anytime I would feel nervous and anxious for what ever the reason may be I would get stomach pain and would get sick sometimes too. I could not fall asleep as I would be thinking of the worst things that could happen to me and my family.

I know I take everything too seriously but it's just that part inside me that tells me to worry about it and think about it when in real life I shouldn't. From the stomach pain and nervousness I have heartburn and problems with my stomach. Someone told me it could be ulcers from anxiety? What?

I ended up in hospital last week and had to have my appendix taken out and it all started with me being anxious. I was supposed to be going to Dublin for the RDS Beauty show and there was a lot happening on snapchat and all the hate got to me and I felt REALLY REALLY anxious to the point where I was crying to my followers on snapchat. That night I've fallen asleep from the crying and then next day I went to college where everything was fine. When I came home from college I started to feel like my muscles were going to fall off, it was so painful. I couldn't sleep that night at all I was getting sick all the time, I was having shivers and then feeling hot. I had high temperature. So, on the morning I went to the hospital just in case and guess what? few hours later I was having a surgery and got my appendix taken out.
I am finally fully recovered now, my scars are healing perfectly and I am just thankful everything went well. It just makes me think how fast things can happen and how we take things for granted.

So how I deal with anxiety? (well how I try to)

Meditation
This is the most amazing way for me. It just helps me so much and if you know how to do it then you will love it too :)


It's all about keeping your mind clear of the bad things and full of the good things, it's about controlling your breathing and your body, your mind.

just remember, it's all in you. ONLY YOU CAN CONTROL it..There is quite a lot of medication available and I do have one for the worst cases but thank goodness I didn't have to reach for that in a long time :)

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this and that the pictures help. It's really important to see positive things around you and you will feel much better!

Now I gotta go because my bed is full of assignments that I need to finish this month, the pressure is on me but I am thinking positive and know all this hard work will be worth in the end.

Lots of love,
Simii

Hello guys, and HAPPY NEW YEAR 2017! I know I haven't posted in a while but I AM BACK!

Hello guys, I am starting a new series here on my blog. I am going to try to do this once a week to tell you all about my life (IN PICTURES).... not like my life is that interesting but you never know.

Hello everyone, I hope your having an amazing day, morning, evening or night. Today I will be talking or should I say writing about face masks.

A few days ago I got the opportunity to try out some face masks from Beauty Belle.

Beauty Belle is an Irish brand (always supporting the home brands, even though I am not Irish).
On their website it says "We are 100% Irish owned and are based in Newry ideally located to serve the Irish and UK retail beauty market"

So if you are in the UK you can get these face masks. Now up to now I always had face masks that you would apply as a cream but I never had a mask that is a 'sheet' soaked in the amazing stuff. 


The first one I tried was the Herbal Immortelle Mask. I wanted to try this because it say to soften the skin and reduce blemishes. It also works for fine lines and ageing skin. When I tried this it was cold and refreshing which I liked. It was a bit too big for my face but that is because I have a tiny face :D but it worked well and it made my face look soft and glowing and my blemishes felt dried and smaller the next day which is absolutely AMAZING. I have ben having so many problems with my skin and this suprised me positively.

Hey guys, this will probably be the most difficult post I am going to write but I feel like I need to get it out there just because a lot of people might be experiencing the same thing.

I am going to take you back to the end of 2014. That is when I started blogging. I was enjoying it a lot and I've put so much work to it. I was still in secondary school at that time and let's just say the environment where I was, blogging was 'weird' to people. I didn't tell anyone about my blog, just one friend and she supports me to this day. I didn't put much attention to my surrounding and the people around me. I did my own thing and no one knew about it. It was working out perfectly. But then.....

People found out I was blogging. There were only a few people that knew and they were the people that i called 'friends', We used to sit together at lunch all the time and we were all so close. We were a group of seven typical girls. When they found out I was expecting them to understand me. Did they? NO. Two of the girls just didn't care about it (which was the better option) and the rest of the girls thought it was pointless, stupid, and a waste of time. Now  you wouldn't expect your friends to say this to you but they did and I felt bad about myself. I was getting a lot of hate from 'ghost accounts' on my posts and that's when I deleted my blog. I was friends with these people for 6 years,

Few months have passed and I created another blog but in my native language, in Slovakian. As i was in Ireland I thought, oh people wouldn't find out so I can start again. So i did and again I was doing fine no one knew. I didn't tell anyone at all only my sister knew. People in Slovakia were reading my posts because it was something different for them as I was talking about my life in Ireland and they liked it. I had a best friend in Slovakia. She was like my sister. She knew EVERYTHING about me. She didn't know until she was on my computer and I forgot I was in the middle of writing a post. She was like WHAT THE FU*K IS THIS? I just told her I have a blog and it's something I enjoy doing. In the next day her boyfriend knew and his friends knew. I asked her not to tell anyone and she promised me. I forgave her and since then we were just fighting a lot. Her boyfriend didn't like me and it's ok I mean there are people that just you wont like, but he was literally bullying me. Now he thought it was fun and that he was only 'joking' but i didn't feel it that way. Everything collapsed the last week I was in Slovakia. It was supposed to be the last weekend me and my best friend would be together and it just went bad. They got into a fight and apparently I was the reason behind it. I still to this day don't know what happened but I couldn't care less. I am glad that everything happend because now I know who my real friends are!

Back to this day, I am not talking to either of the girls from my secondary school or my 'bestfriend' in Slovakia and to be honest I FINALLY FEEL GOOD ABOUT MY SELF AND I'VE GAINED A LOT OF CONFIDENCE,

What made me start blogging again? ME. I thought about it and I missed writing a lot. I made this blog and no one is going to stop me. I shared my blog on all of my social media and I wont care anymore what people say. As long as my family supports me that's all that matters for me.


If you came to the end of this please leave a comment :)
-Simona

Hello everyone, I hope you're all having an amazing weekend. Today I decided to talk to you all about a brand named Natural Collection. Every single product is E2.75c

I like this brand a lot, especially it's concealer. It stays on for the day and covers everything, so I decided to pick more products from them to try it out. Let's begin shall we?


Ok, so let's start with the bronzer. The shade is golden glow and it is what it says. Now let me tell you this bronzer is so creamy even though it doesn't look like it. I really like it's texture and colour because it suits my pale skin. The only thing that I don't really like about it is that it's shimmery but I can deal with it and I will use it in my everyday makeup routine. I really had problems with bronzers to suit my skin and that it ususally just looked like blob of brown stripes on the sides of my face. This blends out AMAZINGLY!